I could type that I’m fed up banging my head on a wall. Even I know walls do not transform into doors. The anniversary of my Dad’s death always arrives with me searching for answers. I so wish I could rewind to a time when he was alive. He can’t answer any questions so I need to figure this life shit out myself. It’s hard to imagine I will ever find the answers but heh, I live in hope.
I guess I learned the hard way that life doesn’t always follow the plan we have in our head for ourselves. Life is about not knowing what’s going to happen next. Life should be about taking those small moments & appreciating them. I know I don’t but I should, we all should. I used to believe if I stopped typing here I’d be forgotten. I could type out any shit & it would be read. Okay, looked at rather than read but how ridiculous is that. If I can be so easily forgotten why should I care. Doubt can only be removed by action & that’s exactly what I’m about to do.
I’m moving out of this blog for a while. I actually have no idea how long that while will be. The why doesn’t matter but there’s a lot of reasons. I can’t turn my blog over to any one else since its about my life lol. To be honest, I’ve totally lost my personal focus & I need to find it again. I need some time to restore my spirit & regroup. It’s holiday time. People are off relaxing in the sunshine, kids are off school so it’s the perfect time to take a break. If you notice I’m missing thanks!!! I hope you’ll still be here when I get back.