Im not liking weekends right now. My big sister is taking great delight in keeping in contact with someone who has left the building of my life. It puts them back into my head, when someone calls time on a relationship, its time. I’m not much of a pontificator, when its over for one, its over for all concerned. Why my sister feels the need to keep contact I will never know, but she does and its bugging the hell out of me. I have asked her to stop but she wont. For me to text him, I wont do that either. I have to big sigh it out and let them be. If they want to be friends its weird but not my business I guess.
I just have to focus my positive energy and not let it get to me. It doesnt take so long anymore to put him to the back of my head. My week travels well, just my weekends that dont have a flow to them anymore. Life is full of those strange twists and turns, one person uses the out card, others are waving it in front of me, Im actually to numb to take it off them, i want to but the numb is still with me, perhaps I just need to thaw out.
I will not go back to asking why, thats not a question I need anymore answers too. So why does my head still own that thought. When will I settle to when its over, its over. Soon, I am boring myself with it now. But why do they do that, why would you hurt someone your supposed to have loved? Ah maybe I have been touched by the bullshit, twat syndrone…