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I am a very proud Mum tonight. Anyone who knows my boring life story knows my daughter Joy was a selective mute from the age of 3 until she was 7. We havent had many major hurdles in the last year to test how she is doing. Today was a huge test of Joy’s ability to communicate. In mass this morning Joy was given the task of saying the bidding prayers. Its a group of 3 prayers we all had to respond to. So, up onto the alter Joy went, microphone in front of her and a gentle pat from harry. I put my head down and out of those massive speakers came my daughters voice. Unquivering, she boomed them out. Our chapel was packed this morning for a coffee morning in aid of breast disease, it was packed like a tin of sardines. Old and new, catholics and non, we all stood shoulder to shoulder. My own row, yes me and my kids have our own row lol all knew how massive it was for Joy to speak. Sorry Lorraine, I almost crushed your hand to little bits I was holding onto it so tightly. But what struck me, she doesnt have any faith and yet that woman took my hand and didnt let go till it was time for Joy to leave the alter.
Whatever happens in my life. The reason why, the wherefors; Do I really need to give a shit. If your putting your kids first, would I fault you, never. If you put yourself first, would I crush you, always..
Tonight. Just for right now. I am as happy and contented a human being as I need to be. For anyone who has ever given my a headache, move along, I dont care. I have a huge capacity to love all and I’m not scared to open my heart and put it out there.
My contacts, just strangers passing through – your all beautiful people who I hope have lives full of the greatest Kodak moments like the one I got this morning that I shall cherish always. Now that really is something to be grateful for.
Neil, I still do my honesty. Its just not self absorbed anymore. Lets be honest tho that never got me anywhere. Lets be honest, if I make it to heaven is St Peter gonna ask how satisfying my sex life was, no. Hes gonna be interested in the things I did that counted – like nurturing my kids to the very best of my ability. My children are above all and right now, thats the way I’m happy to go with. If that ever changes I will let you know, I’m still mad, dont worry. First sign of snow my boots will be off and I’m out to play.
I had a blast today. I worked hard with Joy to make her safe and secure as just Joy, no excuses, no reasons just a kid being herself without reservation or apology. Today Joy’s light shone brighter than I ever thought possible. My 8yr old daughter made me feel so humble today and we all breathe along, singing our own na-na songs. Every night in life I ask each & every one of my children – what have you done to make your mum proud today, even if its just a I brushed my own without you nagging, they get praise. There is no one child above another in my world so I guess I have pride in abundance!!!
> and Caz, your one dame with her light on full power – I love your enthusiasm, you go girl!!
Living in the bestest of light