A FEW BEERS

I havent drunk for years.  The 8 bottles of beer I drank yesterday did one thing.  It made everybody a bit more hhmm nicer??  Jack’s screaming didnt other me.  H and his annoying negativety wasn’t bothering me either.  I sat down the bottom of my garden, cigs in hand, bottle in the other with the previous entry in my head and a smile of ah Fk it.
 
I always try to remind myself, life isn’t meant to be difficult or hard.  Its not a test.  I know mistakes are human.  Biggest mistake I have made is letting people rip the piss so with a lalal I’m off to start my day.  Goal this morning is to find my sitting room floor, its in here somewhere; I just cant see it!!!
We have rain today, good weather never lasts..
 
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Talking about LEMONS & SUGAR

  I read this this morning but it wouldnt let me bring it home.  Its so beautiful and so very true.  I so needed to read this today.  Even if its not true, it melted my heart.  Thanks to another Jacqui for posting it, aint she got the coolest of names lol

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LEMONS & SUGAR

 
1:  THERE ARE AT LEAST2 PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD THAT YOU WOULD DIE FOR.
 
2:  AT LEAST 15 PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD LOVE YOU IN SOME WAY.
 
3:  THE ONLY REASON ANYONE WOULD EVER HATE YOU IS BECAUSE THEY WANT TO BE JUST LIKE YOU.
 
4:  A SMILE FROM YOU CAN BRING HAPPINESS TO ANYONE, EVEN IF THEY DON’T LIKE YOU.
 
5:  EVERY NIGHT,  SOMEONE  THINKS ABOUT YOU BEFORE THEY GO TO SLEEP.
 
6:  YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO SOMEONE.
 
7:  YOU ARE SPECIAL AND UNIQUE.
 
8:  SOMEONE THAT YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW EXISTS LOVES YOU.
 
9:  WHEN YOU MAKE THE BIGGEST MISTAKE EVER, SOMETHING GOOD COMES FROM IT.
 
10:  WHEN YOU THINK THE WORLD HAS TURNED IT’S BACK ON YOU, TAKE ANOTHER LOOK.
 
11:  ALWAYS REMEMBER THE COMPLIMENTS YOU RECIEVED.  FORGET ABOUT THE RUDE REMARKS.
 
AND ALWAYS REMEMBER. . . WHEN LIFE HANDS YOU LEMONS, ASK FOR SUGAR AND CALL ME!
 
GOOD FRIENDS ARE LIKE STARS.  YOU DON’T ALWAYS SEE THEM, BUT YOU KNOW THEY ARE ALWAYS THERE.
 
WHENEVER GOD CLOSES ONE DOOR HE ALWAYS OPENS ANOTHER, EVEN THOUGH SOMETIMES IT’S HELL IN THE HALLWAY!
 
I WOULD RATHER HAVE ONE ROSE AND A KIND WORD FROM A FRIEND WHILE I’M HERE, THAN A WHOLE TRUCKLOAD WHEN I’M GONE.
 
HAPPINESS KEEPS YOU SWEET
TRIALS KEEP YOU STRONG
SORROWS KEEP YOU HUMAN
LIFE KEEPS YOU HUMBLE
SUCCESS KEEPS YOU GLOWING
BUT ONLY GOD KEEPS YOU GOING

living up to my name today..

So H gets ready for his work last night.
 
He puts on his most expensive clothes.  When I look him up and down he says, everything else is still wet.  Since he does his washing on a Saturday, I shrug and think – yeh whatever, Im not the suspicious type.  Actually, I dont care.  He goes out all saturday night, for his own bills not mine, I have no idea what he earns anyday he works or night so lalala onwards.
 
What do I have on a Saturday night. My children, all sent to bed are now wide awake and in full wind-up mode.  I put the tv off and head to my own bed.  I had intended to leave them too it.  Eh??  A bit of responsibily hit me and I get up, put the boys in bed, send the girls to theres and the result of telling them you will go to bed when I tell you actually worked!!
 
I go to my bed seething ever so slightly.  Its not that I miss H, thats something I haven’t done for years.  I would just like a life, please.  Apart from the odd night with my mate I have no social life and with a H who works 6 nights a week I’m not likely to get one soon.  Before someone says working is not "out".  I’m not so sure.  Its never been a trust thing with me because I’m not that bothered what he does but any input he has is always negatively based with an edge and I would prefer a balance with positive.
 
Sorry guyts.  A typical me, me entry.  I’m not moaning in reality.  I do the stay out the way and hope my seething passes before I blow.  H is under pressure and we all feel it.  What pressure and why, I have no idea.  I’m not having that much fun right now and who’s fault is that.  HHmm, that would be mine..
 
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AN EXPENSIVE ALLERGY

I havent worn my wedding ring for years.  I havent worn any gold for years.  I decided to put a 9ct band on.  MY finger was a bit itchy, had a scratch & thought nothing of it.  Oops my finger has swelled up, I have managed to get the ring off but no gold is a problem!!!  Hhmm actually when I got married my finger was a huge size T1/2, now its only a N/O but since my original ring was patterned (well, it was early in the 90’s) I couldnt get it resized, maybe I should dig it out lol…  I do have white gold one’s that where always ok but it just seems a bit odd???  Maybe I’ve got wedding fever ah lalalala!!
 
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a sunny day

I took forever to drop off to sleep last night.  Since H is back to working 6 nights I’m not keen on having another adult in my bed.  He falls asleep quickly and the numatic drill starts soon after.  Bless if my H doesnt snore like a pig, only relief is when he stops breathing, not that I worry he always starts again with a glare as if its my fault.  Anyway 1am and my nerves are jangling.  I woke at 4am and thought bugger it and got up.  My nicotine intake is high and the moment I wake I’m needing a little boost.
 
Out in the garden and 5 cigs  & almost 2hrs later I figure if I dont try and sleep I will run out of cigs lol..  Thank goodness for sofa’s that are long enough for me and I slept until 9am.  Not sure whether I should be bothered that I see H in bed as an intruder, its not like it happens often but I’m used to my little people climbing into bed not a blooming hulk with feet that never seem to stay at there own side of the bed.  His logic says if he lies feet over my side his 6ft 3 body will fit.  Hmmm we have a word for that, noodle!!!!!
 
I must drag myself to asda this morning.  Kids are all out playing having been fed and showered so all I need to do is get Jamie out of bed for child duty and I can go.  I guess it is a positive that H is a taxi driver, I just text and wait for the toot, I can go anywhere.  He does sometimes run after me when I get out with a yell of "you never paid me".  It used to embarass me but now I just laugh with a whatever.  People look at me as if I’ve committed murder not jumped a taxi fare.
 
I am feeling guity that I dont bake, that will wear off.  My girls bedroom floor is a tip again but you know what, its not my floor and I’m not doing it again .
 
If you have sunshine, get out and enjoy it
have a great day
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cereal bowls

The cereal bowls on the floor is easy to explain.  If and thats a wopper of an if someone were to take them downstairs they would have to be washed.  The logic of my younger kids is; if we dont take them down stairs, we dont have to wash.  How pretty of there innocent minds.  My table in my sitting-room I made from reclaimed pine goodness almost 20yrs ago when I did work and since I finished it by hand nothing is ever just placed on it.  Only things allowed on it are my boxed bhudda and my weird, wacky lamp.  Put a crumb on my table I go rabid so bowls, it would never happen.
 
Follow the logic, the floor is clean.  In front of my fireplace is a wooden dolls house that is played with on a daily basis so its never moved.  The bowls are placed just beside the dolls house.  Whilst they do make me sigh its not the biggest crime in my world.  That would be saved for my youngest son who gets up during the night for the toilet.  Little Nicky doesnt stand close enough to the toilet, result is a very large puddle on the floor that no one but me appears to stand in (YUK!!!)..
 
I was given a gift at lunchtime of gardening gloves???  Those who know me know gardening & me dont get along.  My late MIL had a prize winning garden, sadly her son doesnt have the enthusiasm for it and neither do I, maybe because my dad was a gardener I just dont do anything, no plants, no flowers, nothing.   I have a very small bit of grass, I didnt encourage it honestly..  Its keeps growing under the trampoline but I figure its there with a great big smirk.  Everywhere else in my garden is just decking or muck where the wood bark has broken down.  My job today was to tidy up my garden so that my decking could be extended, likeI cared.  Anyway the result is my garden is now clear of rubbish unless I count the 8ft trampoline the 7 plastic chairs that dont ever get used the 3 scooters and the 10 bikes, its clean and my decking is getting done as I type. 
 
That meant I was on dinner duty as always.  Who else hates new potatoes.  Most of mine wont eat them with the skin on so I have to scrape 3kg of potatoes, top & tail 1kg of green beans and make wholemeal scones.  O strange question but can you buy self raising wholemeal flour?  I usually only use white and it was H who bought it and assured me plain is all you get, but is it???
 
Anyway, dinner is over, dishes are washed child 6 psycho is asleep which means aother late night with him.  Lewis doesn’t usually sleep so I hope hes just tired from playing out all day.  I had a smile moment when I looked over to another garden today.  My 6, next doors 4 and another were having a great time with a trampoline and a basket ball net.  There was only 11 kids, not that many and they were having a great time, the noise of laughing and screaming was blissful   Its what makes me remember why I love kids so much.
 
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what sleep??

I didnt quite make it tobed last night. Jack refused to go to his so I was up with him till 11.45.  At midnight Joy was screaming because Hope wanted to go to the toilet (?).  Hope annoys Joy so she had an excuse.  Anyway poor Hope refused to go to the loo with the result that she waited crying till almost too late.  Hope was in the toilet for over 30mins.  The scratching of her head continues but now shes doing it in the toilet.  O god I hate psoriasis.  Her prescription from last week was sent to a hospital to be made up and is still not back so I said she couild sleep in sitting-room.  I sat watching her, she even scratches in her sleep but her head is already raw.  I think she fell asleep about 4.30am, not sure when I went to sleep lol..
 
Ok so, no washing to be done today, did it last night.  The cereal bowls on my sitting roomj floor must be moved, o I cant be bothered today.  If I wore pj’s I would crawl into them but Mum doesnt get a day off, and to sit around all day doing nothing would be a waste of a day.  I have already wasted my morning so its time to move and get some house thingy done!!!
 
Enjoy your day
jacqui
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