Remembering to take my beta-blocker today. Sunday means I usually don’t remember till bedtime and I think it has an effect on my mood. If it does I didnt notice, I hate Sunday. I have managed to almost catch up on my washing. I only have 1 bag full of bedding and its back to washing everyday because I have to. I’m the only one who gets the importance of washing, drying and putting away on the same day so yesterdays is still sitting on my worktop, glaring at me. Tomorrow is another day and I’m not touching it till then. It does irritate the hell out of me. I am of the opinion if it doesnt bother anyone else it shouldnt bother me. Okay, it does but fk it. I had more important things to do today.
I bought 4 new lamps yesterday. Such is the congestion of furniture in my tiny sitting-room before I can plug them in I needed to move furniture to get to the sockets. Easy job lol. I first move the biggest of my 3 sofa’s. Kiddies like to drop things down the recliners so I have a mound of socks and various rubbish to lift before I can move my bookcase out,. So do I empty bookcase or just pull it along the floor. O such a tough choice. I pull it, I did scrape the floor but who can see it? Well me but since no one will ever clean it (I will, no one else) who cares cos I dont. Anyway Henry is bright with a lamp behind him. The shadow on my ceiling is amazing. I only got that one done before I had to make lunch today. I got left to it. After feeding them its onto sofa 2 and another mound of shit. I did find £3 and a school tie lost over a week ago. And fk can I have some skirting board please. Unfinished jobs piss me off. No skiring boards really annoys the hell out of me. I am good thoug, never say a word. Dont want to put anyone out with emands do I. Volcano rising. Ah hell at least my last sofa is in front of my radiator so couldn’t see skirting board anyway. My cleaning thing is maybe going a bit to far. Tv unit and pc table were pulled out and cleaned behind. I’m on a roll and only stop because washing needed seen to. I kinda give up. Lazy, I cant help it. I did fit in the cleaning of my bathroom and toilet so I did keep busy.
I am excited about tomorrow little tasks. My coat cupboard is high again. I found a bag of clean washing it it yesterday and pretended I hadn’t seen it. Well, tomorrow there will be no hiding. I am going to move my Black fridgefreezer and swap its space with my silver one. I’m not sure how that’ll work but I can but try. I’m going to paint my kitchen. Red is the colour I’m thinking about. Red goes very well with black. 2nd daughter had a moment with a set of drawers today and broke a drawer. The resident cabinet maker threw his dummy shouting well I’m not bloody fixing it. I gave the reply well thats not very nice. How about if I said well, I’m not paying for anything in this house. Would that be fair. Why have a skill and not use it when its required. I think thats just bloody childish. So childish dinner was slammed on the table he huffed upstairs and sat dozing off till kids bedtime. The communication in my world is astounding. I am as bad but actually I do my very best whilst its okay for him to do half hearted attempts at things. Mental note to self: Fkn mug!!!
Well home alone – again. Jamie is sitting in his GF’s watching her tv and I have the company of my 12yr old. No I’m not bitter. I’m fed up with my own company but thats someone elses choice and its all good. They earn there money, I sit home alone. What could be fairer. He told me a story on Friday night about a woman who kicked her H out cos he spent more time watching football than he did with her. I felt like saying at least he was in the same house. I neeed to get busy. My brain almost went to questioning why is he still here and I cant be doing that thinking shit. I would open a bottle of wine but I hate the stuff and I got no mixers for a proper drink. I hope your all well and a bit happier than I am.