If you have received an email from me recently, well, it wasnt from me. I know how to spell Hi & I put my name at the end of all emails. The email had a link to check who has blocked you from messenger. I dont care who blocks me from messenger since I’m not much of a user. Long story short its a chain hacker. They bounce from one innocent email a/c, hack the contacts list and so it goes on.. My internet geek Kenz (gorgeous but a geek nevertheless) has assured me that its coming up clean, just an annoyance that its hitting so many people, sorry!!!
Big day in my world tomorrow. My youngest daughter is 9yrs old. She’s still very much a little girl. Untouched by her brothers aggressive tilt she has a happy world; at least I hope its happy. She has a unique sense of fashion and a weird obsession with everything pink. For a woman who only wanted boys I certainly faired better with my daughters. Youngest son is still dominating the world in which I live and the just ignore him is wearing a bit thin. As a Mum I have always respected my children but we have an obvious problem when my youngest thinks its ok to hit his mother. Anyway, I have better things to moan about that my son’s behaviour.
I have a viral infection with the usual cough. I’m only on day 3 so a long way to go but its tiring only staying in bed till 3am before getting up. Wish I could sleep through a cough but cant. Broken finger is finally healing. I did revisit the drs this week who said totally rest it. I was pre menstrual and I didnt appreciate having a man patronise me. It makes no difference to me who I share my wrath with and I did. He kinda looked numb as I told him exactly what I thought about his prescription for stronger painkillers. His idea of stronger painkillers was co-codamol? Fkn co-codamol. I might as well take a rennie for all the good they are; priceless looked crossed his face at that little ditti. So with a if thats the best you’ve got dont bother was met by a we could try splinting it. Yeh great wee idea that. I could get it tangled in my daughters hair as I put there bobbles in for school, good one. Anyone know how to put girls hair up without the use of 2 hands will make a fortune cos I cant.
Work did not escape my wrath. The ego’s fly high and me, I keep mine in check. My drive comes from the desire to raise money; no more no less. I’m not in there to make friends, I’m not there to make myself feel important and I certainly dont need anyone to tell me how to do my job. The wrath was directed, fired and returned. I wouldnt have minded but to do something because thats the way its always been done is just plain stupid when there is more efficient methods. 2nd time wrath fired it went with a well, we’re going with a new method, like it or not. Stupidity is another quality that abounds in my work lol..
I’m remind by the question Who are you. When you ask yourself the question how many answers can you find before you run out and go silent. I remember the first time I did ask that as part of a team building excersise. Goodness I had so many answers, I went on for a long time. I was astonished to learn that the real answer? Ah you only get that when you shut up thinking about the answer, quiet your mind and look to your true centre. Thats where the answer is. I found that a revelation that still delights me. For all my stuff and bluster my centre doesnt just try to be kind, it is. I dont run off my ego. I try not to listen to the chatterbox within me who wants to crush anyone. I used to feel guilty about making people dead in my head. Thats just a cute way for me to stop thinking about them. The phrase dead in my head came from the dead man walking thing I can do. The trouble with dead men walking, you know they’re out there. Whereas if you can make them dead in your head, you dont need to think of any negativety because they’re gone. How totally cool is that. Okay my mother would say its cool but in a nasty way but give out nasty then I can return it. A bit like the stupidity that floats about in work.
So Hope will have a wonderful day tomorrow. I did manage to get her the much wished for DSi with the style boutique game in the one box. £150 and a 2day turn around for delivery, Tesco did save the day. I will mention the fact that I didnt get any money for any of her gifts because we have stopped that. I maybe should have realised that last month when my other 2 daughters had birthdays and I got nothing. I’m in a everything is cute phase which is helping me. I guess it doesnt matter who pays for the presents just so long as they get what they’ve asked for but it does irk me. I dont do cards so at least her Dad will have to put his hand in his pocket for those. I would be a bit ashamed if I was him actually but since he contributes rarely and doesnt appear to feel guilty about anything connected to money I dont see him feeling anything. The takers of this world do indeed have a blast at the expense of others with a kinder spirit but I guess they work off the logic that if we’re stupid enough to keep paying out its ok to fk us over. Nearest and dearest indeed. The last laugh is ours who still have money
I hope you all have a fun filled weekend.