My day started with son No 2 leaving for a week. This led me to arriving in work later than I’m comfortable with. Anyway get my head down and just get on with my Monday stuff. One woman had a bit of a paddy. I didnt look at her when I said good morning and I asked her to do something different from her normal. I step over her toys on the floor, take her to the kitchen. I explain why she was asked. I apologise for my rude behaviour pointing out it hadnt been intentional and went outside to calm my freakin bad mood down. I also had to “talk” to a member of staff about her purchases that she doesnt pay for. An awkward conversation from me met with sheer hostility. Not one of my better days at work. I think I’m going to just put my professional head on and distance myself a little. I sometimes forget I’m the team leader. I have to have the difficult “chats” and whilst I know they’re not always appreciated they have to be done.
Home at least is normal. Tonight I’ve been thinking about not working. Making my life once more boring. A stay at home Mum without kids around all day seems absurd to me now. I have 7 kids and I would struggle to fill an entire day. Work however is becoming frustrating. I just feel its more trouble than its worth and thats not good. So balance boredom against frustration. I dont know.
I’m off to bed. I hope tomorrow is a better day.