My title is in reference to a dream I had last night. I obviously followed through from my reality of thinking I’d made a mistake. It was a bit spooky to have a dream about someone who’s dead. I hadn’t even met them. The one time they seen me they had looked at me in a quizzical way. I didn’t give them much thought tbh. It’s not my business what anyone thinks of me, alive or dead. I wonder if my annoyance of being thought of at all is partly to blame for my dream. Anyway I was “spoken” to. I had an internal smirk going on. I always find it cute when youngsters try to lecture people who know far more than they do. Kudos for having the balls though. I just did some nodding until they got exasperated. I was struck by how like there parent they were. They slam dunked me with the you know your totally inconsequential comment. Was that supposed to hurt me I wondered. I asked if that was true then why are you here. If that’s true why are you even talking to me. I was so tempted to ask what the hell was wrong with them. I wouldn’t waste my time with someone who didn’t matter when I was dead. I was tempted to point out that I deserve peace as much as anyone. I couldn’t get my head around it. Even with the knowledge that it was just a dream it spooked the hell out of me. I got up out of bed & wandered into my bathroom wondering what the fuck that was about. I kept reminding myself it was just a silly dream. I had already figured out my non importance all by myself. Nothing quite like getting a conscious thought confirmed in a dream. Inconsequential is something I have never been called. I hate to admit it but he really was spot on. On a positive note one living, breathing, human being thinking that does not outweigh the people who don’t.
Okay, that’s got that out my system. Today is a full on washing day. My school stuff had to be re-washed which means I am behind. My bed has the wrong sheet on it so I need to do 2 loads of bedding. I appreciate help but a grey sheet with a black duvet cover just doesn’t work. It’s very simple. Black duvet cover has a black sheet. If its a silver grey sheet it should have a silver grey duvet set. Lamps should be changed when duvet set is. I currently have purple lamps with black bedding & it’s not rocket science. I’ll just have to finish my online shop & work my way through the washing. Kids are preparing to move bedrooms today & I am staying well out of it..