I had hoped today would end peacefully but no. Baby child stropped so no such luck. I posted The Long Goodbye again because someone had searched it. It’s not often I see search terms. My reaction was awww. I love that song, I rarely listen to it. I can make myself feel sad for better reasons. It’s called 2006 in my ipod. That was a whole other time. It’s been a pretty quick 10yrs though. I’m not sure much of who I was then remains. For good or for bad we change. However long or short a goodbye is it should be final. It’s one of those words that can cut you dead & you can’t come back from it. I rarely say goodbye, the thought of saying it scares me. The last time I said it was to my Dad who’d just died. I can still remember kissing him as I said it. (& if my big sister ever finds her way here no, I won’t get over it). I still wish he was here. I’m over tired & I’ve pretty much had enough of today. I think I should just give up & go to bed. Nighty-night.