It’s weird being in my house alone. The silence is deafening & I don’t like or appreciate it. My nose is filled with the various smells of teenagers. The overload of deodorants, perfumes & aftershaves is to much for my senses. The Joop aftershave is trying to upstage the perfumes & it’s winning. The smell is so strong I can taste it. This means my bathroom will be a sea of dirty towels lingering in a pile on my floor. I have no room for a laundry box so lets just drop our towels on the floor. Personally I remove mine but maybe that’s a Mum thing. A little job to be done at home time.
I haven’t really mentioned how life is going have I. Given that this is a personal blog perhaps I should. Life is going okay actually. Its neither worry or stress free but the sinking feeling I was waking up to every bloody morning has gone. It’s been replaced by a what will be attitude & for the last fortnight what will be has been okay. Never expect any better than okay because I dont, ever. Okay means me & mine are surviving with no great drama. That’s brilliant for me. I get to go meet my strangers every day & forget about my family responsibilities. When I’m here I’m totally here but work gives me something to concentrate on. I do miss my eldest son but I know he’s in his yellow happy bubble and I couldn’t wish for more for him. I’m proud of the man my Jamie has become. There is no edge, no agenda & what you see with him is what you get. He’s way to like his Mother. My wish for him was that life became all that he wants it to be. I got my wish so I couldn’t ask for any more. I’m off to have a great day 🙂