You know if you were to ask me I’d say the past shouldn’t matter. We can allow it to spin inside our heads but ultimately whats gone is gone. I’m sure I realised that before but a huge part of me wanted it back. I had a huge dollop of resentment that’s been spoiling life. I need to just let it be as it is. Find the biggest, tallest shelf & sit my pretty little box where I can’t reach it. It’s done because I’m done. Goodnight.