I seen my Dad last night in my dreams. He stood, nodded at me & smiled. I was so shocked that I wakened up crying. I got up & came downstairs. I went into my garden with my cigarettes & ipod. I started to listen to One Republic singing Say. Death so interrupts the flow of life & that song reminds me to feel everyday even when the days are pretty shit. I can imagine Dad saying I know your trying your best but your best isn’t good enough. He’d kick me up the arse & remind me that if I’m determined I can do what I need to do.